i need your prayers and advice please 🙏

I am at a stage in my life that I'm thinking of doing something that will end up ruin my life 😭😭😭😭😭nice first daughter mama na ina da siblings mama da baba sun rabu tin ina primary 1 mun sha wahala sosai a gurin kishiyan mama na bata son mu ko kadan,ni da nake baba she hates me sosai...kullun cikin min sharri take gurin babana saboda ya tsane nii,haka naci gaba da rayuwa cikin kunciii da wahala ba mama sannan kuma babana kullun cikin hantara da kyaratayake 😭😭😭😭😭haka abu yayi ta tafiya har na gama primary nayii shekara daya a gida banje secondary school bah baba yaki kainii,har sai wata rana uncle dina kanin babah yazo gida da safe ya ganni ya ce bana zuwa Makaranta ne nace mishii eh sanan yace akainii wata makaranta da aka bude kusa da sabuwa nan stepbrother na yake zuwa....da safe shiru shiru ba wanda yace in shirya haka na shirya na bi brother Schoolllll din naje office din head mistress na ce ance tamin interview shine ta kira uncle dina bayan na gama komai a saka ni a jss 1 na fara karatu a ranan ...haka problems sukai ta faruwa har baba na ya korenii daga gidan sa saboda kishiyan mamana 😭😭😭😭haka na tafi gidan su mamana da dare...gashii su ba karfi ne dasu bah haka naci gaba da zama ina zuwa makaranta na samu na gama secondary school da kyar,mamana ta sake sabon aure yanzu ni gidan ganny na and I'm on my on..ni nake ma kaina komai mamana bata da karfii da zatamin wanii abu Babaaaa na manta rabon da yamin wani abu 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭rayuwa tamin zafiii Duk wanda zai taimaka maka sai ya nemi wani abu daga gurin ka 😭😭😭😭ba cigaba da karatu gashii haryanzu banyii aure bah shima ansani a gaba..zuciyata tana rayamin in yarda da kawai in biye mazan tinda zasumin ban kudii in kula da kaina da siblings dina....ku tayani da addu'a Allah ya banii ikon cin jarabawa 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏