Tonight, my chest feels heavy, my heart aches in ways I can't even explain. I wish I could cry louder, scream so the whole world knows how much it hurts, but instead my tears fall silently, soaking into the darkness where nobody can see.
Sometimes I wonder, why does love feel like a wound that never heals? Mr. A's memory stings like fire. He loved me more than I could ever repay, he gave me all of him while I was still lost inside myself. I pushed him away, I broke him, yet he still asks about me. Wallahi, it hurts more than rejection. His love was rare, but I couldn't hold it, then I was small or maybe immature, or maybe I was confused. And now, guilt drags me down like an ocean.
Then there's Mr. B. A different kind of pain, a silent storm. With him, it was never complete, never defined, yet my heart still whispers his name when I try to be strong. Maybe because of the friendship that doesn't need a name, or maybe it was a love that got lost, maybe because of the soft voice and listening ear, or maybe... I just know I miss him, but I can't reach out. I feel like I'm trapped between what I lost and what I never had.
Ya Allah, why is my heart like this? Why do I feel empty even when love touched me? Why do I keep bleeding inside when all I want is peace?
I don't want the world's sympathy, I just want Your mercy Al-jabbar. I want to breathe again without guilt, without longing, without this ache that keeps me awake at night.
So here I am, crying without a sound, wishing the tears could wash everything away. Maybe tomorrow I'll smile again, maybe tomorrow I'll find myself. But tonight, all I can do is cry and hope Allah is listening.
ayya sorry 😐 keep praying sis komai ze wuce. reach out to him, give him a chance again. we all want someone to be with us.
you sisters behaved same thing and after sometimes you start to regret. wish you health sister
Unfortunately I can't reach out, it's too late.
Nonetheless, Thank you.
may Allah make it easy for you
Ameen, thank you.
Subhanah 🥲 and you're in pain..Allah ya fitar Dake lpy, but remember to take care of yourself sister, take your health issue very well tom seda lpy za kiyi missing wani
I can't agree less to this, but it's piercing, and beyond, that I sometimes forgets myself. But Surely! Allah will intervene and replace the empty space with His love and Mercy.
I understand how things like this could be, I can relate one way or the other, but my sister be strong, true strength is when you're in control of your emotions and with action, faith and prayer you surely can achieve that, please do not dwell on your pasts, for true contentment is found not in yearning for what you don't have o what you lost BUT in how much you are willing to let go, trust in Allah, trust in your prayers, trust that he knows best what is best for you and happily move on with your journey and preparation for a day when kinship, wealth or money has no value or benefit......Look at the broght side of things, if only I could write like you, if only I can pen down my thoughts as you do, if only I am as smart and wise as you are, if only I have as much experienced as you do............mistakes are meant to make us and not break us, I wish you the best in life, may Allah make upur struggles easier, Amiñ
Inshallah things will be alright, It is not easy to stop loving someone. but if the guy is worth reconciliation. Please you should get him back probably he might miss your absent too
Indeed This post reminds me of my ex-girlfriend, whom we met on this platform. She is from Jigawa State but often lives in Kaduna.
Hafsat 🥹😎 such a nice girl suddenly she changed, I don't know what happened to her.
At the end, we are all human beings nobody is above mistakes.
hopefully she is doing well🥹
please don't think is too late probably he might miss you too real loves never dies
please be my English Teacher. am not Joking. This Write up just Masha Allah. please tell me if it's possible for you to help. Sorry about your pain U might not fully heal but in Sha Allah you will be Happy and you will soon see the wisdom behind What Ever Happened in Sha Allah.
Jazakumullahu khairan. This is surely motivating, you've said it all, thank you. And yes, you can write beyond, just trust the pen with your thoughts, how you feel, what you wanted and all the emotions. Make it a diary-like writing, it doesn't have to be perfect, let it flow the way it is in your mind. It appears you're smarter and wise, cautious even with words. Yes, I'm still learning from my mistakes but then it breaks me a little at times. Ameen, I pray same for you. Thanks.
InShaaAllah, Thank you with the kind words.
May Allah suffice you.
Thank you for the compliment, and believe me when I say I'm a terrible writer, nothing near a teacher. It has always been a blackout writing, my emotions always does the magic and left me in awe afterwards. You don't necessarily have to learn to write, just be yourself and write, write until it becomes a habit, write about your day, the shadow, the ocean and the bird. Write everything and nothing, perfection comes from consistency. I can't teach you, because I'm shabby enough to fail you.
As it is said, love what you have before life teaches you to love what you lost. The thing is most of us have been there. We do things we regret later, things don't work but later on, when you glance back you realize that what didn't work out for you truly worked for you. You seem to understand that the mistake you made probably made you the better person that you are today. If you never pushed them away, you'll still be the naive person, you won't appreciate genuine connection when it comes your way. Instead of replaying what you lost... You can ask, What did these experiences teach me about love, maturity, and myself? Make the pain becomes wisdom, not just wounds.
Let me tell you what i normally. First when you're alone, write an unsent written letter to Mr A and to Mr B. Jot down your thoughts concisely, then tear them or burn them and tell me how you feel. May Allah ease our affairs.
in Sha Allah sister
Yes, I agree but often times we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. InShaaAllah something better will arrive, those were never meant to be. Thank you for not judging and for the kind words. Ameen ya Allah.
I am very thankful for the help I received during a tough time after losing my partner. He guided me toward healing, and now my relationship is stronger and happier. Contact this spiritualist via email: ( peacefulhome1960 @ zohomail. com )
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