Before I start I'd like to say "yes I know I'm wrong " . So, approximately a year ago, I met this lady on Facebook, I made a comment on a certain page,she saw it and decided to message me . We started talking,it was solely based on friendship and nothing more nothing else. She told me she's depressed,my comments usually make her laugh and shed like us to be friends. But as time went on feelings started developing in both us. We chat almost all the time and we stay in the same state . However, before anything even started I noticed somethings were off about her, I went to her timeline on Facebook and noticed some things I would consider as red flags but as it is in my nature I always like to think good of things and I gave her the benefit of doubt . The relationship started,i fell in love ,so hard like I've never felt before. We met after a month,she would come to my work place and bring lunch for me. I felt I found my soulmate . However,I noticed a few things were off about her, she doesn't want to meet my colleagues and she doesn't want me to introduce her to anyone close to me . She requested that I shouldn't call unless she calls me first, and she doesn't normally chat anything after 9, I thought maybe it's due to the rule of their house. She also tried all means to avoid me coming to her house to see her parents Nevertheless, I shrugged all of it away . This certain day we met at a restaurant we normally converge regularly,I noticed a few things were off about her . That night she told me she wants to make a confession,that I should forgive . I was thinking maybe it's because she didn't pick my call that evening or something. What she told me shattered my system. She confessed to me that she's married, she's staying with her husband and they have two kids. I was shell shocked . She told me how her husband use to treat her badly and all the things happening between them,how she nearly committed suicide one time . Common sense said I should have ended things ,but problem was I had already fallen madly in love with her and I don't want to run away and leave her with the monster she described to me . She gave me assurance that they'll soon get divorced and we can start planning about our future. I knew it was wrong,I saw myself as her knight in shining armor,I felt it was a sacrifice worth making,I just need to endure until they she ended things with her husband. We continued communicating and meeting in secret . Everything about the relationship was forbidden but I have to confess I've never fallen in love with anyone like I did with her. As they say, people can't really hide their true character forever, the infidelity aside I noticed she has anger issues, she's ungrateful , I frequently buy gifts and things for her ,whenever I don't it becomes an issue. I noticed she never accepts her fault and She's very good at manipulating her wrongs into right and turning the tides on me. As always I'll apologize and let things slide. The relationship kept on going with no sign of changes, I felt disturbed but I kept on with it. It reached to a point where I could no longer continue,I couldn't sleep in peace , I was always deep thoughts. I confided a friend about everything and he opened my eyes to things . I was being manipulated and used right from the beginning. I decided to end things with her ,I explained things to her bit by bit and how it's affecting me ,I couldn't continue with that relationship if she can't end things. I told her I still loved her and I will be there when she's ready. She showed no sign of care ,remorse or anything. In fact she just made it look I'm the one who was playing her and she's the victim. I ended things there and I never looked back . It was a draining experience for me and a life lesson. I'm asking for God's forgiveness everyday . Its a trauma I'll have to live with for the rest of my life.