I fell in love with a narcissist 4years back,we started the relationship when I was 17years,I saw many red flags which I ignored,he's a critical womaniser,he ask almost all my classmates out and my close friends,they all told me but when I approach him he always deny it did I forget to mention he's a critical liar,never met anyone who anything that comes out of his mouth are lies,it was clear he charmed me,he was always stealing from me but I thought he needed it that why he did steal from me so I never bothered,he always give other girls money when he doesn't have he takes from me and give them,but I was too blind to notice,he told me he wants me to visit his family not knowing it's an empty house and he raped me,I'm sure guys know that stupid belief we have that when a girl is disvirgined no man would marry her so I thought my world has end,even though I wanted to leave I thought no man would want a lady that's not a virgin,ba goriba but I pay his transport fare anytime he comes to my place,he turned me into his sex toy,anytime he wants to have sex I'm just a call away,even in our area we do have sex outside,I can never tell him no.anytime he comes to see me zuciyana zaiyita bugawa,when our eyes meet zuciyana zaiyita bugawa,did I forget to mention my pocket money for school is for buying airtime to call him,he hardly calls I'm always the one calling,and he's also a woman beater,we hardly meet and leave in peace,I always go home injured from the beating,when my sisters ask me what happened I always tell them I hit myself by mistake,he always abusing me:zanci ubanki,zanci uwaki,Kina haukane.I was always told how pretty I'm and it got into my head,but since I met him he shattered that little confidence I was having,always telling me how ugly I'm nd that I think I'm beautiful he knows many ladies that I can't even stand close to.I lost my friends because of yahadamu fada dasu because of his lies and manipulations and I just believed him and block them,he always ask me for nudes,and I always sent it to him and ask him to delete it if he's done watching not knowing he was keeping them to manipulate me,anytime I tell him secrets he was always recording them to use it against me later on,I gave him my phone because he was job hunting and his phone had issues,not knowing I gave him access to my account and he hacked every account on my phone,messaging all my friends,taking there contact from my phone and asking all of them out,he activated 2 watsapp on my phone,one is his nd the other is mine,if they ignore him from his he then message from mine and tell them I gave him their contacts so he should get to know them.if any man calls my phone he collects the sim claiming ge seized it because another man called me not knowing he wanted access to my bank account,and he got access and transferred my school fees money to his account,all I had then was just the atm,the transfer and alert sim was with him,I asked him he said he's not the one,I kept begging him even though it was clear he's the one he told he's not he ended the call on me,I had to find other means to pay I didn't have anything to eat because my upkeep money was among,my mum has to pay a mallam for the jazz to be spoiled,he noticed and was rushing to give me things,perfume,rubutu.my mum always throw them away,ya hada munafinci tsakanin nida mamana,we did 2weeks without talking because of him,in the middle of it I got pregnant I wanted to keep the baby that would've been the biggest mistake I would've made,I thought I already made many sins I cannot add killing an innocent child to it,my stomach was always paining,we met and the stomach pain started,he told me let's go I told him my tummy was turning and I can't walk and this guy started beating me ended up breaking my mouth,then I knew I was into no play,still I couldn't leave,I had to call my friend to help me with abortion pills,the idiot couldn't even afford abortion pills and was telling me to abort it,the time I summon courage and told him I'm no more interested in the relationship we should end it cause I'm tired cause it's clear he won't change and it's who he's,he started threatening me with nudes I even forgot sending them to him,told me ban isa inbarshi ba if not he's going to send the nudes to the world,told me I'm useless to any man,because he already finished me,seriously I will die regretting why I didn't leave earlier,cause I had nothing to give any man,it's better I come back to him,he pleaded we meet so we talk or he leak the nude,I was so scared that I went out to see him,he said he can't leave me and he's sorry,he has changed 😂,I told him no I don't want him anymore,this guy started beating me and told me I dare not leave because I told him I'm leaving,ladies take notice never ignore any red flags,nobody changes,I had to send police to him because my mind was made up I couldn't even eat,to warn him cause anytime he sends me nude I'm taking him court and pressing charges on him for raping me that was when I had peace though until today he's still begging me,he confessed using jazz on me that why I couldn't say no to him,and scared of him than my own parents,I thought I forgave him during Ramadan but to be honest I can't I'm just lying to myself I can never forgive him for what he did to me,Allah has to judge between us,I hope this serves as a lesson to ladies,sorry for the long write up,that's not all I just had to summarize it