I know alot of people will judge me based on my actions because even I feel I was stupid and childish with everything I did.... I regret every action of mine and I am asking for forgiveness from God. yet I still feel the urge to do what I have in mind. I don't know if it's just the devil playing with me.... some months back my dad sent me some money and asked me to keep for him till he needed it. being the youngest in my family and the closest to him. he trusted me to keep it for him.... the money was in my account and I didn't touch anything.... a friend of mine who got married had alot of issues in her matrimonial home. and at such they parted ways with her husband. because the marriage was not up to a month. the husband demanded she paid back for the lefe and some other things he spent on her.... she didn't have the money neither did her parents.... she was very disturbed and she spoke to me about it.... I thought so hard and had so much pity on her. I told her I could lend her the money. then she pays back when she is settled just to clear everything with her ex husband and she was happy. she was very thankful.... I gave her part of the money in my account hoping she would pay back after a while.... a month passed by and she didn't say anything about it. then two months past n still no word from her.... then I decided to ask her... she said I should give her time.... which I did.... another month passed and still she didn't pay the money. when I spoke to her she said I should come and collect it from her by force. because I gave her money so I won't allow her rest.... I still kept talking to her and she blocked me on WhatsApp.... she is a very active person on social media and that too a known person because she is always all over social media. it would be too humiliating to publicly announce her name....... I need advice on what next to do with her.... I felt I was being a good friend by helping someone who her husband treated like a no body... just so he could get off her back coz he even threatened to take her to court if she didn't pay him..... I can't open up to my dad....last month I started having the thought of paying back myself before he ask for it.... a friend of mine hook me up with an older man who was willing to pay me money but only if I slept with him.... my conscience kept hunting me that day n I couldn't bring myself to do it.... I am a Muslim n I have never thought of sleeping with a man just to get what I want.... but I just feel like I don't have another option..... I'm supposed to meet someone tomorrow n I can't sleep right now.... coz my whole mind isn't at right...I have a million thoughts... what should I do to get out of this mess I got myself into....