Finding my peace

Most people who have broken up in their relationship, you’ll find them in pain, struggling to handle the loss. Not for me... I feel at peace. We’ve been together for a while, and I loved none like I did with her, but there was an important part missing.. my peace of mind. The love I had for her canceled out the red flags. I endured a lot of things, and she did as well... I wasn’t a saint. Without the love, we wouldn’t have lasted a week. I have spent all of the love I saved, but I’m glad I did. She made me a better person, she taught me a lot about love and relationships, and I learned my flaws. But in the end, we had to part ways. I couldn’t meet her expectations when it came to love; no matter the effort I put in, it was never enough. Maybe I’m bad at this. I tried to make it work, I tried so hard that my inner peace kept chipping away little by little. I was always second-guessing myself, always treading on glass so as not to hurt her or make her angry. I’ve learned you can’t teach someone who doesn’t want to understand you. I loved her, but when the love drains you more than it fills you, you need to choose peace. Sometimes I had to lie that I traveled just so I could have my peace. I was in love, but I didn’t receive the love back. No matter how much I tried, it was never enough. She’s not a bad person, she’s actually a very good person.. but we’re not compatible as partners. That’s the truth. There was love, but it wasn’t enough. We had to let each other go and hope we find the person who truly loves us and aligns with us.