Salamu alaikum. I hope this reaches you in the best of health. I want to know what people think. Ok this would be long so bear with me please. I am a 35 year old man with a wife and 3 kids, I am working with the government and earn handsomely Alhamdulillaah. I have never had a real love relationship with a lady since secondary school and I got married without doing such as well with my wife. So as I grew older up to this age, I've been having the urge to go into a real, honest, sincere and dedicated love relationship with a lady that some day inshaa Allaah will end up in marriage and this feeling/urge is as a result of me wanting to get a female partner that would stand as a friend, in fact my best friend and the compatibility should be there. Now mind you, I don't hate my wife nor do I want to part ways with her, but to sum up everything, we are not friends, I feel we are just husband and wife living together but that bond is not there, I give her her rights as a wife Alhamdulillaah but just the compatibility is not there and now that I am at this age, I need someone that I can have as a wife, best friend and compatible partner. Now I tried to adjust to the way she is but it's not working for me😥, I don't have any plans nor intentions of divorcing her as she's the mother of my kids and I want to keep being good to her. As for me, I just feel there's a huge gap in my heart that needs to be filled, I am a very emotional person and I feel I need a female best friend as a wife that I will share my emotional feelings with alone and would give her all my love as a best friend and a wife due to the compatibility and understanding that would be between us and I would also make her independent of my current family in separate locations if it's possible inshaa Allaah. Everytime I see married couples that are friends, I really feel like crying cuz that's what I feel I am missing. So I decided to try and see if I can get any buy unfortunately, the few ladies I have met were either after money or they wanted to get intimate, now I don't have a problem with that because I could control or check it but the fact that that is their priority, actually kills the vibe. So I was thinking what exactly the problem is, is it me that's the problem, if it's me, how do I solve it, or am living in a fantasy world or am I seeking too much, sometimes I even ask if what I want is even possible coupled with the fact that I have a family already and that's like a major turn off for ladies when they meet a man. Lately, I saw this lady on IG and I was actually infatuated but I really can't talk to her because a man with a family is a no no for most ladies these days, although I don't blame them because they might think he wants to just have me as a side chick and all as people say but I really wanted to give it a shot to see if it can work with her but then when I remember how these days ladies rush a man into marriage it kinda discourage me and Wallaahi whoever I get, it won't be my intention to waste her time whatsoever but she shouldn't rush me into marriage cuz I would really want to know her very well before making my decisions. Sometimes I feel I am asking for too much. So house, am I crazy or what? Please, advise me respectfully. Ma'assalam