Anonymous
Dec 29, 11:10 PM
feeling sad
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Assalamualaikum, wonderful people on this forum. I HOPE YOU TAKE SMALL TIME OUT OF YOUR TIME TO READ MY STORY. I'm feeling sad, and my heart is heavy. Maybe sharing this with you will make me feel better.
My boyfriend of two years and I broke up at the end of 2023. It wasn't because we fought or anything; it was just a misunderstanding caused by our families. We were fine until that misunderstanding. Knowing the mistake was mine, I pleaded with him to get back together because I still love him. When I was dating him, I didn't double-date, so finding someone new was difficult for me. After pleading with him, he said no, and I felt rejected. It was as if he never loved me, because I believe if he did, he would have given me a second chance. Since it wasn't even my fault, I told myself to let him go. I was praying hard for Allah to help me forget him.However, from time to time, he would call to check up on me or send messages. Last week, I brought myself low and asked him for a second chance, after saying no to the first request and he said he would think about it. I was angry at myself for stooping so low; I felt like a beggar. So, I blocked him on all media handles and blocked his contact.I convinced myself that I'm fine and will be fine without him. Then, one day, I saw a call from an unknown number, and when I called back, I heard his voice saying he was checking up on me. I said thank you, and after the call, I sent him a message telling him not to call until he had finished thinking about whatever it was he wanted to think about.
Honestly, I feel so pathetic, all because of love. The annoying thing is that I haven't given anyone else a chance when I was with him
