Some times back I wrote about "My Infatuation Story" then, i was full of emotions which made me share the story. And here I'm also writing today out of emotions, I find it more easier to cry while writing. There's no doubt no one have the ability to relieve a person's burden Except the One Above, but at least sharing it is a way to ease it. What should I even write? The fact that I still have feelings for the person that only have one wish about me and that's all, or the fact that I want to tell my mother everything happening around me, which Unfortunately is not Possible 😭 How comes I have lost so many of my dreams now, the Ambition and lots. I no longer have interest nor do I have much energy. Yah Allah! I completely and immensely trust your timing, for my Lord is the best of planner. But I seriously want to cry, I want to cry so much that the sadness and pain will go away. I wish I can go back to being the 11year I used to be, that girl smart happy girl with so much energy, Daddy's and Mommy's girl, Big Sister's daughter and Last Sister's Favorite(May Allah Have Mercy on Them all) 😭 back then there was nothing to cry about but you still cry about petting things kamar rashin sayo maka tsaraba knowing you've got them all and everything, and now no matter how much you want to cry you still can't. I can't seems to cry the much I want, Astagfirullah Allah na tuba kada na zama butulu, Alhamdulillah. But why do I have to met him in the first place, what kind of destiny is that. Why? Why does he wish to do that, what if I gave in knowing the fact that I like him? Innalillahi 😭 I sincerely love him, is he not aware. Yah Allah I'm really thankful for everything, Yah Allah I have None other than You, banda kowa sai Kai Ubangiji na, Kaji qaina, Ka min Rahama, Ka kare Ni da Kariyar ka, Ka tsare Ni da tsarewar Ka, Ka mini kyakkyawan zabi da Alkhairin da yake cikin sa Wanda zai zama sanadin Shiga na cikin Aljannatul Firdausi cikin sauqi. Yah Allah ni mai dumbin zunubi ce, ba domin halina ba Allah Ka Tausayamin Ka kawo Haske dawwamamme a cikin Rayuwata. I know many will think just because of a guy, this and that. It's not all about him, it's beyond. I admit the fact that I like him this much, and it utterly hurt me to heard such thing from him tonight after waiting to see him for 48 long days, lol dama iska na wahalar da mai kayan Kara I'm very aware about that from the beginning, just that I'm hurt, so hurt that it's better to keep distance kada nazo nayi abinda zanyi regretting in future. It's better to end it here today and focus on my life, on my dreams, on the future. What is meant to be will surely be 😊