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Salamu alaikum. Ina wuni. Ina so na yi wani magana ne, abu ne wanda gaskiya ya zama ruwan daré kuma astaghfirullaah Allaah Ya jarabce ni da shi amma Alhamdulillaah ina kan barin abun kuma ina daɗa roƙan Allaah Ya yâye mini kuma followers su sâke taya ni da addu'ar barin abun gabaɗaya. SORRY IT WILL BE A LONG WRITE-UP.
I got exposed to porn at a very very early age, and this made me had my first sexual encounter at also a very early age, I think when I was at JSS, the same person that exposed me to porn, took me to have my first sexual experience with a sex worker, at that age, everything was normal to me, fast-forward I just got addicted to pornography sosai like sosai, zan yi spending hours and hours ina kallo ko browsing porn, in my university years, kallon porn ya ƙary sosai na zo na fara zuwa wurin street hookers ina having sex, I can't count the number of times na yi having sex don abun ya shige ni sosai, everything was swxual to me, duk macen da na gani kawai sai na fara imagening ina having s*x da ita, dake ba a Nigeria na yi karatu ba, duk tafiyan da na yi duk inda muka yi transit kuma za mu kwana sai na nemi hooker. So at my 3rd year in university, Alhamdulillaah, Allaah Ya sa na haɗu da wani ɗan Saudiya wanda gaskiya ya riƙe addini, na yi joining group ɗin su, haka ya samu gaba ya fara koya mana addini and all, my life started changing, I decided I have to leave this habit, I started ignoring porn and I didn't even want to have anything to do with it, for goot two to three years, I stayed away from it. I now finished school, came back to Nigeria, informed my dad I wanted to get married, he supported it and Alhamdulillaah I did my NYSC, got a job immediately after my service and then I got married a year after I got the job Alhamdulillaah. Everything was going fine, two years into my marriage, that habit kicked in again after I got exposed to sexual contents on Tumblr (then Tumblr had lots of porn on it and they were wild porn), I now started having the previous feelings I used to have, I felt I needed more s*x, I was a beast inside Wallaah.
At first I was going to my wife whenever na ji na matsu, sai mu yi abun mu, unfortunately, I needed more, I wanted to have more s*x because I had lots of fantasies in my head and I wasn't doing it all with my wife because somethings, she felt, she couldn't do them because to her it wasn't ok and they weren't nasty things, just dai normal porn stuff (apart from a*al). Sai na dawo na koma neman street hookers, it even got worse, na fara hauwa hook-up sites ina ta samun hook-up girls muna ta haɗuwa a hotel, abunda na san ban taɓa yi ba shine na ga innocent girl na yi yaudaré ta na yi s*x da ita ba, wannan kam ban taɓa yi ba, duk hauka na sai dai na je wurin hook-up girls because I really respect religious and innocent girls Wallaah, kuma if you see me, you will never think I am someone that will have such in him, I am a very responsible person amd very careful in whatever I do. Back to track, I started meeting up with hook-up girls muna ta yin sex, kuma ni mutin ne wanda na iya sosai irin any girl da na yi da ita sai ta ƙira ni sau ba iyaka, kuma ban taɓa yi babu protection ba.
This habit kept getting worse and worse, it got to a point, I can do it with different ladies in a day kuma duka za mu jima muna yi and we do everything apart from a*al, and they keep calling me after that to comd back let's do more, duk cikin aure ln mu da mata na kuma my wife never found out although she later started suspecting because ta taɓa ganin receipt na hotel a pocket ɗina, she cried profusely but till today I never uttered a word about it but I really felt bad.
I continued, I was spending so much on hookers s*xing them, I was never satisfied, I wanted to spend a whole day doing it with break intervals. The reason why I am giving details is so you should know the extent this habit got into me. Kuma ba irin matan da ban yi da su ba, young hookers, older ones in their 40s, Arewa ne, kudu ne har hookers na Niger and all of them never wanted mento leave. On the other hand, my wife was was also getting it yadda ya kamata.
I now met this Arewa lady who was a hooker, we started having s*x kuma she went crazy!! Ta ce let's be together and anytime we wanted it let's meet and do it, abun ya zama kaman mun yi aure, har in mun haɗu tana ce mini she missed everything and she couldn't wait, sai mu fara munyi ta yi, ba irin style ɗin da bamu yi. Kawai sai watarana muna yi, a thought now hit me cewa "Allaah fa na kallon mu" it was after that I decided that was it, I had to take that decision of stopping everything.
I now started making serious Du'a and at the same time working so hard to erase that life in me, believe me, it's EXTREMELY difficult!! but Wallaahi Tallaahi no matter your sins, even if they are as much as the mountains of this whole world, Wallaahi in mutun ya yi honest sincere repentance da addu'a da aiki towards changing, Wallaahi you will be surprised how Allaah will help you change. As I am talking to you, I have completely dropped that lifestyle da ikon Allaah da taimakon Shi and mace kam sai dai na kalle ta.
I made up my mind in Allaah Ya hora mini with more wealth I will marry another wife instead of going back to that life, dama I tols myself since cewa mata biyu zan yi dan na san kaina. Yanzu fa ina gaya muku kaman ban taɓa irin rayuwan nan ba. Ina ganin mutane suna posting on how they are porn or s*x addicts toh Wallaahi you can leave all these things all you have to do is to make up your mind and tell yourself you are doing nothing but gaining more wrath of Allaah and keep reminding yourself about death then male sincere repentance and be honest with it.
Har yau akwai matan da suke ƙira na suna turo mini text bana ma kula su, very soon I will delete all their contacts and those that are still calling and texting I will block them all, Insha Allaah na bar banzan rayuwan nan and I pray Allaah help all those suffering from it Ya yâye musu Ya sa su canza gaba ki ɗaya.
Wanda kuma basu zama exposed to this life ba Allaah Ya kâre su kuma it's something you won't want to go into, it's very horrible, it will eat you up, parents, protect your children at all COST!!!! please kada ku raina ɗan kiss ko hugging ɗin da ake yi, do not allow them watch TV on their own, in fact, limit their exposure to TV, KEEP YOUR EYES ON THEM!!!! |
