Mar 1, 11:44 PM
I am confused about my life
I am a young person of 28yrs that has been blessed with what i have always wanted at my age, a comfortable life. Alhamdulillah i have everything more than what an average 28 yr old has. i have 3 houses in Abuja, lagos and kaduna with a very good stable income however i have started a life i don't like and i want to stop. about two years ago i found out the girl i loved and wanted to marry was only after my money i spent more than 7million on her within just 1 year and i was very heartbroken after that that i decided not to trust any woman again i don't wish the feeling of heartbreak on anyone its horrible it affected me badly this was someone i dreamt we'd have life together but she was just after my money i ended the relationship and moved on.
i started having lots of girls around me and sleeping with them, i can't count the number of girls i have slept with including the daughter of a known politician, whenever i travel i most of the time have a girl in my house which i'm not married to but lately i feel bad because after Allah has blessed me and given me a lot this is not a way to live my life in his disobedience. I feel like a horrible person i want to stop but i'm so used to the lifestyle and changing would be difficult because i'm not planning to get married my experience with women have thought me to just use them and move on.
I need to get rid of my sexual desires in order to stop this haram lifestyle it may sound like a crazy idea but i was just wondering if anyone can offer me some advice or suggestion and I needed somewhere to let my worries out